For highly intelligent men who carry immense spiritual depth, it is not the "first love" but the first devotional love that imprints and echoes ad infinitum across his temporal layers.
Speaking from experience after divorcing high school sweet heart, im pretty sure it doesnt unfortunately. The corny saying “its better to have loved and lost…..etc” is shockingly true
I think people get scared. maybe of the intensity or maybe of the psychological visibility or somewhere in there I think it's fear of death if I love you that much you may be the last person I ever love and you're going to die someday and it's going to hurt. that's my sense of it
For me, the fear of death was a big part of it. Loving someone so deeply, you start to think about eternity with them. Then you start to think about all that could go wrong. In the end you either endure through that uncertainty, or let it destroy the very thing you are scared of losing. That’s my biggest lesson now that she’s gone.
I agree with you Jason. It is scary to be that vulnerable and need another with such depth. It’s interesting to me because I realize know that I am yet to experience it. I do relate to it though, from an inner knowing. I yearn for it. I know I will receive & give it in the fullness of time 🤎
The word "focus" was intentional, meaning that while she is human, it was never the primary driver or central intention, his wellbeing is.
what do you do when you have experienced that and they're gone and just won't come back?
Speaking from experience after divorcing high school sweet heart, im pretty sure it doesnt unfortunately. The corny saying “its better to have loved and lost…..etc” is shockingly true
This is so well put. I wonder why though, this kind of devotion barely stays for good ☹️
I think people get scared. maybe of the intensity or maybe of the psychological visibility or somewhere in there I think it's fear of death if I love you that much you may be the last person I ever love and you're going to die someday and it's going to hurt. that's my sense of it
For me, the fear of death was a big part of it. Loving someone so deeply, you start to think about eternity with them. Then you start to think about all that could go wrong. In the end you either endure through that uncertainty, or let it destroy the very thing you are scared of losing. That’s my biggest lesson now that she’s gone.
Yes, that’s profound, Drew. Did you let fear get in the way? Is it too late with her? Or has she passed?
Too late.
I'm sorry to hear that
I agree with you Jason. It is scary to be that vulnerable and need another with such depth. It’s interesting to me because I realize know that I am yet to experience it. I do relate to it though, from an inner knowing. I yearn for it. I know I will receive & give it in the fullness of time 🤎