Highly intelligent individuals are always searching for peace to soothe themselves, yet it is often the one thing that eludes them - no matter how hard they try. This is due to the myriad of unstable paradoxes they carry within - each one revealing that not all unstable paradoxes are created equal. It is precisely because of this internal discord and unyielding restlessness that they perpetually seek to soothe all that storms within - spurring on their relentless drive for self-enlightenment and self-mastery. Growth, for them, emerges from the continual battle waged within, demanding deep metacognitive reflective contemplation and analysis.
They often realise that awareness is not always a net positive for their inherent nature - for what they gain in knowledge equally unsettles their curious minds. Being consciously aware of their innate tendencies does not bring resolution or peace, but instead multiplies contradictions - adding facets, edges, and crevices that need soothing. In their search for peace, they end up on an unstoppable merry-go-round. It becomes a game of choosing which unstable paradox to place in the "hot seat" at any given moment - sometimes multiple at once.
For as much as they desire to "find peace", even when they momentarily experience it, the sensation rarely provides lasting satisfaction. The question then arises - is the "peace" they seek merely an attempt to suppress their inherent restless nature? Why must curiosity and restlessness be declared pathological diseases or disorders by mainstream medicine? Is it to marginalise minds capable of breakthrough insights? Why can't they just be?
They begin to understand that conventional "peace" may not resonate with them and that their construct of "peace" is entirely different - an ever-moving goalpost - present one moment and slipping just beyond reach the next. Peace, for them, is almost like a fleeting state - akin to the quiet within just before taking a leap head-on into danger, sitting in silence in the presence of someone who truly understands them, or in the stillness found in nature. Nature, with all its paradoxical beauty and its inherent chaos and clarity, mirrors their own existence.
In many ways, the "peace" they long for is always in motion - neither resting nor soaring, but oscillating somewhere in between, in a state of flux. Peace, for them, is not a destination nor a pursuit - but an ongoing negotiation.